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April 6th, 2005

12:04 pm - Bored...in study.....

01. I have never kissed someone of the same sex on the lips
02. I see a therapist
03. I'm the youngest child
04. I am drawn to things associated with sadness
05. I have gauged ears
06. I wear black eyeliner every day, not large amounts like most though...
07. I am extremely influenced by kindness
08. I love to write
09. I can't live without lipgloss
10. I'm probably emotionally scarred

11. I lived in Tahoe
12. I spend money I have
13. I'll be in college for over 4 years
14. I love designer handbags
15. I've had a concussion before
16. I'm not good with confrontation
17. I loved the Backstreet Boys ... loved being the key word!!
18. I have more than a couple horrible memories
19. I'm addicted to Degrassi
20. I've tried writing poetry before
21. My first kiss was unexpected
22. I'm not a fan of rap
23. I love taking pictures
24. I don't like girls who are fake

25. I can be mean when I want to
26. I love AFI
27. I have kissed someone who's name starts with a "B"
28. I have way too many pairs of shoes
29. I was into Hot Wheels as a child
30. I dress how I feel that day
31. My room is painted a color other than white
32. I cry very easily
33. I'm always early
34. I barely ever study for tests
35. My birthday is my favorite holiday
36. I have too many clothes for my closet/dresser
37. I am a morning person
38. I wish I was smarter
39. I believe that it is wrong to be gay.
40. I think that its ok to be gay.
41. No one REALLY knows me
42. I don't have many bad hair days
43. I sometimes fight with my parents
44. I am passionate about my interests
45. I have had the chicken pox

46. I'm a hopeless romantic
47. I feel empty sometimes
48. I am/was most likely clinically depressed at a point in my life

49. I am no longer depressed
50. I am very outgoing
51. Christmas is my favorite holiday
52. I can be very insecure
53. I don't notice it, but I'm told I'm very softspoken
54. I hate ignorant people
55. I love the color yellow
56. I love guys that play the guitar
57. I state the obvious
58. I'm a happy person
59. I have absolutely no self-confidence
60. I've contemplated suicide
61. I hate cleaning my room
62. I tend to get jealous

63. I like to play video games
64. I love John Mayer
65. I get more upset when I see an animal hurt than a person.
66. I'm a vegetarian/vegan/don't eat beef.
67. I've had a crush on a teacher before
68. I am too forgiving
69. I bite my nails
70. I have a good sense of direction
71. I've never had a boyfriend/girlfriend before
72. I've played a musical instrument for more than 5 years
73. I can function perfectly well without a girlfriend/boyfriend.
74. I love kisses on the forehead
75. I love the color blue
76. I don't sew

77. I am not addicted to drugs
78. I wear contacts
79. I hate it when people say they hate Bush because he is a moron. They should have more reason than that
80. I really, really, really, really don't like Bush, but I have reasons to justify it.
81. I don't take criticism well
82. Conformity is stupid
83. Chris Carrabba is one of the sexiest men alive
84. So is Conor from Bright Eyes
85. I love my family.
86. I don't mind getting shots
87. I am a perfectionist when it comes to certain things
88. I always wanted to learn to play the drums
89. I can be too hard on myself
91. I have had Mono

92. I am very religious
93. I still act like a little kid
94. I am ridiculously indecisive
95. I believe in a higher power or some form of an afterlife
96. I love music
97. I'm in love.
98. I have problems letting go of people
99. Jesse Lacey writes some of the most amazing lyrics ever
100. I don't really like ice cream
101. I have freckles
102. my birthday is in JUNE
103. Brody Dalle is pretty
104. I like older guys
105. I've gotten in numerous fights, and have won most of them
106. I get bored very easily
107. My parents are divorced
108. I wish my parents were divorced
108. I don't even know what my natural hair color is anymore.
109. I get really anxious in big crowds of unfamiliar people.


Current Mood: boredbored
Current Music: Ordinary people

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March 16th, 2005

11:52 am - Umm Can I just say, Burrillville Broncos, you ARE sick!!
Ok so Monday night I was at the greatest hockey game I've ever seen. Cocky Moses Brown was in the lead for the entire game, we tied 3-3 and had to go into overtime. Nicky Rambone...WOW...amazing goal...I thought the bleachers were going to break and we were all gonna die we were flipping out so bad! The boys are playing Saturday and Sunday at PC...I'm so pumped. After the game Saturday, me katie em kayla laura and jolene all decided that we're going to Dave's, he doesn't know it yet, but it's happening.

I'm sitting in the frekin media center because this school sucks the biggest balls ever...no senior privelages...BOGUS!!! Oh my gay...I'm listening to stupid freshmen talking about how napoleon dynamite died in a car accident...old rumor...get with the times losers. My stomach hurts...just like every day after lunch...Adderall...loving it. not eating as much, wich is needed now that hockey's over, but I am playing golf, which should be nothing short of a joke. Oh well I might be the only girl on the team who's ever played, and walking the course every day will keep me kind of in shape. Crystal Lake is opening soon!! YAY!!! hopefully there will be some money in my pocket soon. I want to be a hostess tho, along with working functions, I need a definate source of income every week. Maybe I can start going tanning agin...ooohhhhhhh I hope so....Uggghhh seriously...I hate school. I need to get my application out to Nichols so I can play hockey next year. Ughhh I have english next period...waste of 45 minutes...then Gym...I get to wear my uniform!!! haha Trogish got these Napoleon Dynamite uniforms and I have the only one!! They are pretty cool actually, I'd wear 'em if we had to.

Me and Katie were invited to Chantrel's birthday party...my mom is actually letting me go. Down at URI..I'm so excited...Katie's friend Alyssa is coming down from New York that weekend and she's gonna come with us, they are gonna be roomates next year at URI..I'm very jealous...Oh well I'll go to Nichols in the fall, play hockey there, then transfer to URI and play there...it's a win win situation. We're playing volleyball in Gym...my team is nasty! me katie em and kayla make up the power line...nothing gets by us...and we're undefeated...I know...it doesn't get any better than that...Ok well this is a wicked ADD entry...my thoughts are everywhere...ugghhhh I just remembered...lol I'm a fagget and have detention for the rest of the week...no bueno...detention for being late is BOGUS...So are substitute teachers that think they are teenagers and are bitches to you first period of the day, love it!!! Ok well there is four minutes left of this period and I have nothing else to write about...I'm just gonna sit and reflect on my shitty day so far...Peace
Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: The Killers- Mr. Brightside

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March 8th, 2005

06:11 pm
Well lastnight we had our semi-final game against Bay View...and we all played like shit...way to end a nice season...8-0...we finished 11-3-1, which is the best record the team has had yet. I'm so happy it's over, like all the shit talking and bullshit, I would love to be playing still, I just wish everyone checked their ego's at the door and got along, whatever, I don't have to deal with it anymore.

Tina's home...YAY!!! Already she's gotten me into trouble, I got dismissed at 11 today cuz I had an appointment at 1 and I had 2 studies in a row and it was pointless for me to be there, so we were gonna go out for lunch then go to greenville, but we decided to go back to good ol BHS and ask Mr. Trogisch if she could shadow me tomorrow, he said yes and get all my teachers to sign off on it, I told Mrs. Johnson that I already signed out and she told me to just hurry up. we took like 10 minutes and just as we were about to leave, bitchy secretary #2 asked me where I was going, I told her I already signed out, and she thinks that she can run the school and tried to tell me to come back in...haha yea, so she made a big deal of it, I left and they called my dad, now I'm supposidly in "Big Trouble" with Menard tomorrow...I'll talk my way outta this one thank you! Even if I do get in trouble, I'll get In School with Roz, now tell me that won't be fun...me and Roz, the posterchildren for ADD stuck in a windowless room for 6 hours...haha.

Oh and, the coach from Salve called me on Monday, he was at the All Star game I played in on Sunday and he told me I had some serious potential and then asked me what my SAT scores were...I told him...I should have just hung up then, he goes...Ahhh it might be tough getting you in...hey buddy, thanks, he said he'd be at my playoff games too...no pressure or anything, and then the next day after I was all excited about it and told like everyone I got home and got the mail. In it was a letter from Salve, REJECTED!!! Yup, but it's my life... Katie went on an overnight there and said it sucked, the girls are snobby and didn't even talk to her, she said I would hate it, and there are like 550 or more girls in the freshmen class and like 175 or so boys, no thanks, I don't really like girls, especially snobby ones. Yup so looks like I'm going to Lasell...I'm going to visit it on April 2, I hope I like it cuz there is no way in hell that I'm going to Fisher.
Ok well thats pretty much it.peace out!
Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: 50 Cent- Piggy bank

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February 19th, 2005

12:44 pm - 10-3 Baby...10-3
Ok so lastnight we won our game against Barrington...2-0 another shut out to put in the record books. We are in double digit wins, which is pretty cool. AND We just found out lastnight that Bay View backed out of our Hall of Fame tournament, so we're gonna win it, we can beat North Smithfield and LaSalle. I got a new blade for my stick finally. My stick is so much lighter, no more cracked up, watter logged, second hand, stolen from Jeremy blade...I put some new tape on it, and wax, melted it all together...It was nice, I wasn't whiffing when I went to shoot, and I had some pretty decent shots on net. Anyways, yesterday Mr. Ferraro came up to me and held his pinky up and said Truce??? I was YES!!! So we're cool now, me and Roz are in the "Circle of Trust" again, Jill was too cool to do a truce with him...Oh well. Umm lastnight me and Katie were gonna go to the girls basketball game at Woonsocket high school...yup...definately got lost, I thought I could get there one way, but we ended up no in the right place, so we went back to Katie's house so she could get some clothes, and we went to her brother's hockey game at Mount. They were playing LaSalle, so it was def. gonna be a good game. At the beginning we were sitting there and I said that I'd like to see LaSalle win, I'm sorry, but I just can't cheer on mount...anyways, LaSalle scored the first goal, and then they kept on trading goals, Mount ended up winning 5-2, it was a good game none the less. We were gonna go hang out with John and Jared, but that never happend, We got home at like 11:30 and I was beat. I downed a RedBull, and I still passed out like 40 minutes later. Now tonight we have a game the "Friendship Cup" Gay ass name if you ask me, against NS...We're gonna win it again... ok well i'm gonna go straighten my hair...peace
Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: Tori Alamaze- Don't cha

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February 17th, 2005

02:45 pm - Burrillville High School Administration = Psycho's

Ok so I don't really feel like explaining all the kinds of trouble me and Roz got ino Tuesday at lunch, then me and Jill last period. Mr. Trogisch...really, is it necessary that you show up to every single class or destination I'm headed to??? Thank God I'm one of his favorites, otherwise me Roz and Jill would be royally screwed. Ha, it's great to be in with the principal...anyways, we're no longer in Mr. Ferraro's "circle of trust" he's been a jerk to us 3 since wednesday...I know it's only Thursday, but he's the only reason us 3 go to school, we get our way all the time and don't get in trouble for much, pulling pranks with him is the hilight of the day, but 8 Eyed Bandits is sadly no more, or at least for a little while untill we can gain his trust back. Mr. Jalette serisouly is the biggest ass to me and Jill, he had nothing to do with with the whole Ferraro situation and is making it seem like we killed someone or something I don't know. He told me today that I shouldn't be allowed out of classes and that me and Jill were going to have a rough rest of the year...Ughh I wanted to punch him in his skinny little face. Whatever, Mr. Ferraro is kind of making a joke out of all this now, and me and Roz wrote him apology notes at the end of the day. 55 school days left untill graduation!!!! I seriously can't even wait that long, like I'm gonna miss all the Tech Prep fun I have, but other than that, Peace Out BHS...I got my prom date today, FINALLY. John Coffey...we went to the freshmen Semi together, and now we're ending with the senior prom. Plus I was his number one match on his compatability sheet we got on Valentine's day...I mean, that has to mean something...lol Just kidding....Ok well we have the day off for hockey and I'm lost, I might go outside and shoot around and totally ruin my blade so my dad will HAVE to get me a new one....We're doing really good in hockey too we're 9-3...which is the best record our team has ever had...I'm pumped. If only the freshmen and the rest of the team had some drive to beat the shit outta mount and Bay View....Anyways...Ok this entry is pretty long and I'm running out of stuff to talk about....Later!


Jill has a good point J Lakin5118: I just realized I have less then 50 days left in my senior year, I have prom, graduation and so many other things to look forward to, And im done wasting my time worring about this...

"You Live To Learn From Your Mistakes,People Move On And Times Change,So Live With No Regrets For You Only Live Your Life Once"

50 days....prom...senior banquets....gradutaion....I love it!

Current Mood: excitedexcited
Current Music: Akon- Lonely

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January 30th, 2005

06:59 pm - DITCHED

Well, I'm supposed to be hanging out with someone right now but, they are def. TOO COOL. thats all I'm gonna say.

I went skating and snowmobiling at Aim's house today...sooo coooooold. I burned my hockey pants on the heater that they had outside, they melted right on my knee...No bueno...it was kinda funny, thank god I have another pair, and they weren't my new ones.

Lets see...this weekend we went from a 3 way first place tie in hockey, to third...it sucked, my shoulder is killing me, thanks #22 with the fat arms...I swear my shoulder got pulled out of it's socket when my stick got caught in her jersey under her butchy fat arms...anyways...we could have beat Bay View on Saturday, but I seriously think the 9:00 games make everyone play slower and stupider! We couldn't make anything happen. Oh well I guess thats what practice is for, and we have it, every day this week, even good old morning practices...gotta love tying the skates and getting frostbite in the -5 degree rink, with the brisk cold air making even your eyeballs cold. Ahhh... nothing like it....But I must say, we did have some good laughs in the locker room before and after the game..."Your mom goes to college" It took 10 minutes and the whole team to explain what that meant to me...I'm tellin you, blonde was the hair color for me.

February vacation me and Roz are going up to Kent's Hill to live with Tina for a few days. Oh how I look forward to the 3 hour car ride...me and Roz were making fun of her telling her that it sounds like camp and if it is, we're not staying. There are only 250 kids in her school. I think it's gonna be fun though, she's kicking her roomate out for the weekend, God knows what we'll do, but with those two I'm sure it will be a blast. Ahhh I'm so hungry and bored....Ok well I should be typing up a lab, but hey, thats what studies are for!!! DUH!

Well at least it's Sunday and I can watch Extreme Home Makeover, and Desperate Houswives...Sunday's are a good TV. night now, but Monday's, are soooo much better...Growing Up Gotti...love it...Ok I'm going to make some dinner...Paaace
Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: Usher- You don't have to call....TC

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January 26th, 2005

06:33 pm - I HATE SNOW!!!!!

Ok so I had a lot of cool stuff to write about but now I can't remember a GD thing I was going to put. Well today I was a walking flase advertisement... I had those air bags that Becky gave me in my bra today to make the twins look a little bigger..it worked somewhat...I tried on my bathing suit the other night just because I can't wait for summer and almost cried...my stomach look pretty good...but I have no boobs to fill it...it seriously almost brought me to tears...I asked my mom to buy me that bra that makes your boobs a whole cup size bigger, the one that you can get at CVS and she said no, I didn't need it, so I was like fine, I'll use all my birthday and graduation money to buy implants...She didn't like that too much. But seriously god...Why do my boobs have to be disappearing on me?? Anyways....

The hockey team was in the paper 2 times in one article...about Events in sports this week that you can't miss... it had us playing Mount on friday and how we have the same record, and then us playing Bay View on Saturday, and hopefully beating them...Ughhh I'm pissed tho, we've only had one practice this week!!! we're going to be playing the team we're tied for second place with and the first place team on two practices....We're gonna do good tho....

Ok well I had more to write about but I can't remember it ...OH...can I just say that I'm in LOVE witht the Gotti's....Monday's are now my favorite day of the week!! Ok Bye!!

Oh P.S.....I'm also looking for a Prom Date....A cute one if possible....

Current Mood: Bored- I hate snow!!!
Current Music: These boots were made for walkin....

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January 18th, 2005

04:23 pm - Uggghhhh
Ok so lastnight was the most frustrating night of my life....I couldn't sleep, it took me like 2 hours to fall asleep, then at 1:45 Greg called me to tell me he got a Nextel and a new number...thanks buddy, that was running through my mind all day if your number was still the same, thanks for telling me at like 2 am. Then I couldn't sleep cuz he pissed me off he called so late and I didn't fall asleep till like 6 am, I didn't go to my english or gym exam cuz I felt sick to my stomach all day...I haven't eaten anything all day, which is something new....I sat at home and watched tv. all day and was miserable and lonely....Matt just called me and made me a little happy. He's a good friend...and he better take me snowboarding this week!!!! I just got the date for my surgery set, April 8th....thats pretty soon...I'm scared!!! Prom is May 27...I have 7 weeks of recovery...My face better look normal...hopefully I'll lose some weight.....Ok I'm going to take another nap...later
Current Mood: lonelylonely
Current Music: Mario- You should let me love you

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January 16th, 2005

03:32 pm - Hollerrrrrrr

Well I just got back from Nickole's pocketbook party...got myself a nice Coach, and Tiffany necklace...$135...thanks mom. She sent me there with a blank check, it was nice. Well I haven't written in here in a while, let me update....Coach finally made me captain....not a C...and A...whatever tho, I'm not gonna complain, We are now 6-1...which is the best record the team has ever had. I got a  "stupid" penalty lastnight and got sat the whole third period because I can't control my emotions on the ice...which is BULLSHIT, I'm sorry if the girl was pissing me off and I pushed her head down and she fell face first into the ice, she should learn how to keep her balance...anyways, me and Roz had fun talking shit about everyone on the bench in the third period, and then again on the bus, we were going crazy...it was fun. I didn't get accepted to Worcester...fucking bastards...I mean who has a 98% acceptance rate for in state applicants and a frekin 2% acceptance for out of state students?? Whatever, I'm gonna do good a Fisher for the first year and transfer somewhere else, me and Ash are gonna be roomates, it's gonna be a blast. Ummm we have exams this week...not looking forward to my english exam, Mr. Jalette is seriously a retarted teacher, he gives us shit to do, but doesn't teach it to us...I'm gonna do sooo shitty.... hopefully I can still go snowboarding on Tuesday.....Ok well I think thats all....Later

"Turn Around...Bright eyed, every now and then I fall apart!!!! And I need you now tonight!!! And I need you more than ever....and if you only hold me tight, we'll be holdin on forever...

LMAO good times on the bench singing that lastnight

Current Mood: boredbored
Current Music: Total Eclipse of the Heart

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January 9th, 2005

06:53 pm - I LOVE MY GIRLS!!!
Ok so today, even though I only hung out with Ash, me and Nikki had a funny conversation, and all night all I could think about is how lucky I am to have friends like them. I had a blast with Ash tonight, even though the mall closed at frekin 6, I had some good laughs. I got an I love beer bracelet, now I can be cool like Ash.I really can't wait till Friday, no matter what we do, it's gonna be a night to remember. Ok well Ummm thats it, I'm frekin pumped for tomorrow. Growing Up Gotti, new season starts tomorrow!!! Yay, I've missed Carmine and John...very hot. I have my appointment with the oral surgeon on Tuesday, it's making me nervous, I have to set my date for my opperation and stuff. Scary shit, I'm gonna be happy when it's over, I won't be able to eat for like 3 weeks to a month, hopefully lose some holiday weight and then some. Then I'll get my beautiful braces off...it's been too long....Ok I'm gonna go do some laundry. Later
Current Mood: happyhappy
Current Music: Lloyd Banks- Smile

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